A boring life update post.

So what’s going on in the life of Alan these days. This poor blog has been a bit neglected.


Moving

The wife got a new job, so we’re moving! As I can work anywhere, it’s really irrelevant where we live. However, this means my day is filled with work. Frantic packing. Stress.

But it’ll be good. The new place is a better fit for our family and lifestyle (less fast-paced than SLC Valley where we live now).


Working

Oh man. Am I working like crazy.

In the last 3 months, I’ve released 2 roleplaying games, ran a Kickstarter (currently on), helped with two others, and am prepping two more releases in the next few months, and more next year.

I got a new job. It keeps me pretty busy. I’m still doing work for Nocturnal Media, Planet Mercenary and a few other items.


Gaming

With the impending move, the gaming has slowed a bit, but here’s what we’re currently playing:

  • Star Trek: Adventures – I actually get to play in this sucker, and I’m playing the Human Captain, Montgomery Rhodes. I should do a bigger write up about this.
  • Blue Rose – The new edition of Blue Rose grabbed me and one of my groups is trying it! Good times.
  • D&D 5e – We’ve got an ongoing D&D 5e campaign that is going great.

There’s other odds and ends in there, but that’s the primary thrust!


Puppies

Oh yeah. I have two puppies.

We’ve had Fae (the Black & White Chihuahua / Greyhound mix) since April-ish. She’s a little terror who runs on pure energy, and Ella (a Chihuahua-something mix) whose sweet and clingy and tolerates Fae with excessive patience.

They’re pretty freaking adorable, and they keep me busy. Also much healthier!

Ok, there you go. Life update! Expect your regularly served gaming posts and record reviews to start as soon as the move is over and my records are unpacked (sad Alan).

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Leonard Cohen

I’m not really a person who gets invested in celebrity as a concept. There’s actors I like and follow, musicians I enjoy, but I don’t really tie my personal life or feelings up in them or their works.

That being said, Leonard Cohen was a massive influence on my musical listening and personal life. The raw, hoarse, gravelly voice was among some of the first CDs I bought as a college student. There was something about the old fellow in a fedora on the cover that grabbed me. Bought a CD sound unheard, and sort of ignored it for a while in favor of Guns n’ Roses, and 80s rock I already knew I liked.

I can’t remember anymore why I listened to it when I did, but at a time when I didn’t know I was bipolar and struggling through depression, Cohen’s music and his voice struck a personal chord, and it became one of the closest things I had to a friend during those days. It was a personal thing. I wouldn’t play it if others were around, or could hear. It was music that I listened to by myself, for myself, and with myself.

There’s a sense of personal loss at the news of his death. It’s a sort of an echoing, rattling feeling, bouncing around my emotions and brain like a hollow echo. It’s something I hadn’t quite expected to feel or have resonate within myself today.

I’d put off listening to his music in the last half-decade, as I’d attempted to put those negative memories behind me. I don’t think I’ve really listened to a single song of his until last night. I shrugged it off as another event in 2016, and while sad, it was just…what it was.

Today, I found my old Cohen playlist, and loaded it into Google Play. Hearing that off-key, yet familiar voice coming through the speakers today was like seeing an old friend. I’ve found the bad memories have washed away, and I’m left with the deeply personal, almost spiritual reverberations. I’m looking forward to updating this playlist and exploring what I’ve missed. It hit me harder than I thought it would today, and so here we are. Me placing words on digital paper as the album Ten New Songs is playing behind me.

Thank you Mr. Cohen, and I hope you have found what you needed to. You left something indelible on my soul, and I’m better for it.

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Whew…

Tiny Frontiers is funded.

And I’m brain dead. The amount of emotional energy and investment into an Kickstarter as the project runner is a lot more than I had anticipated (having only been a freelancer, and invested on a different level before).

Wow.

We did great.

As a creator, there’s lots of nagging doubts and concerns about the quality of the project, and the innate…appeal of the Kickstarter. Lots of Why did they cancel?, Why did they lower? Why is today worse than yesterday? What did I do so well yesterday?.

It’s effectively a giant land-mine of self-doubt, and I wasn’t ready for the sheer exhaustion that would sweep me away as though a tidal wave had hit me at 1PM MST today.

But it did. And I’m ok.

Tomorrow and Thursday are breather days. Not really thinking about it. Not really working on it. The assignments are already out (I try to work ahead), so it’s not like I can do anything but micro-manage anyways.

Whew.